Hahahahaha...

Okay, so even though I'm not active at all on it, I'm a member of Twitter, which is basically a place for short (140 characters or less) blogs. A place full of Facebook status updates, if you will. Much like Facebook, you have followers on Twitter, and people who follow you also. When you follow someone, their "tweets" show up in your feed. Even though I haven't tweeted in MONTHS, I still check in about once a day to see what people are talking about.

One of the people I follow is Ingrid Michaelson...she is one of my absolute favorite singer/songwriters and a pretty witty person (her blog is good for a laugh, too). One of her tweets made me laugh out loud today, so I thought I'd share it:

what does corn really do for you? i mean...if it comes out exactly the same, how could it possibly be benefiting me nutritionally?

HAHAHAHAHAHA...no other words necessary... :)

Whoa...

I told my boss today that we're thinking about starting to try to have a baby.

That makes me freak a little bit, because it makes it real. Ahhhhh!

On a side note, A looked at me today during lunch and asked "Dinkin' what I'm dinkin'?" (Dinkin'=Thinking, FYI). Hahahaha...I love two year olds who memorize little catchphrases like that and then use them at inappropriate times. Hahahaha...

Loss...

I should let you know first thing that this will be a fairly self-serving blog. A blog without many anecdotes but more for putting thoughts on the record...

My heart is breaking for people that I don't even know. Through a friend of mine on Facebook (actually a college friend of one of my best high school friends...follow?) I learned of a little girl, Cora, who just passed away this weekend from neuroblastoma. She was 11 months old, and they had no idea she was sick until just a few weeks before she passed. I read through her parents' entire blog, which started when Cora was born and ended with her ending her short battle with cancer, and just sat there and cried over this tremendous grief that these parents were going through.

I've been thinking about these parents so much for the past couple of days, today especially (the memorial service was this afternoon), wondering why God would allow something like this to happen and how they have managed to maintain such great faith through it all. After Cora was admitted to the hospital, they blogged nearly daily with both prayer requests and praises for the day...in the midst of such suffering they still managed to see God moving in their lives. They have clung to scripture, often posting meaningful verses, and have talked of the songs that have meant the most to them ("Mighty to Save" was one that was mentioned).

Scott and I are at the point where we're about ready to start a family, and this kind of stuff scares the crap out of me. How do you handle things like this? How do you keep going? I know the "right" thing to say (God is always faithful, God will see you through anything, God is the ultimate Comforter and Healer) and I know that all of those things are TRUE (undeniably so), but I'm still amazed at the faithfulness and steadfastness of this family. Even when you find yourself in a hole of despair, God is God, and He is always God, even when things seem terribly unjust.

*sigh* Thanks for letting me vent. I just needed to get some things out. And if you could remember the McClenahans in your prayers, I'm sure they would appreciate it. They've been cooped up in a hospital for awhile, so I'm sure now that the memorial service is over the feeling of loss may get worse before it gets better. But they are trusting in the LORD, and He will be faithful to them always.

Now go hug your kids -- if you have them...I hugged M & A a little tighter today... :)